Pain sucks

Waking up everyday in massive pain and barely being able to walk sucks. After sitting for 10 mins and hardly being able to stand up sucks. I would say getting old sucks but I am not old I am 35. My body had failed me. I hate the cold it makes it so much more worse. Everyone keeps telling me go to the dr and get pain killers. Yes I will do that when I am done breastfeeding if that ever happens. I am not trying to be a martyr or anything but I feel that until my child is ready to ween I should not take away what is rightly his. I do understand though where to draw the line here and I will not have a child still breastfeeding at 10. Actually I think I would be uncomfortable with even 5. LOL.

So for now I will just have to feel like I am 80 and not 35. Damn all this just because I wanted to be a parent. The sacrifices we make. Those selfish kids actually asking to be taken care of after we have them…

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